Everything we went through wasn't real. Looking back it wasn't so long ago but I had real feelings and felt real pain. Here you are again doing the same thing you use to do and it's almost like you never felt anything at all and you still act the immature way that you did before we met, the person you were glad I never met. And here I a with a new guy who is obsessed with me and totally different then any boy I've been with in such a good way but I'm still waiting to feel the same way for him as I did for you. It's pretty fucked up isn't it, that I hold onto the past, it hurts we can't be friends but I've tried and you've made that choice. I hope Kevin is legit, he tries to be but I don't obsess over him as I did with you, but maybe that is growing up... He makes me happy but I guess I'll never understand what I saw in you. But you've changed now and what I saw in you is irrelevant because whatever I believed I felt was just me looking for love even though I know it's not real love.